Bill

Today was tough. It was like most of my days. The problems I have, financial, health family and whatnot are still the same. But today somehow felt a little more difficult than usual. Maybe posting this entry will help. I just dont know if things are going to work out. Somedays an inspiring song might get me going, or even a smile from a nice stranger. But today I feel down. It feel as if the hole gets deeper and deeper. I dont know if i’ll ever make it. I dont know if ill achieve my childhood dreams, in fact I doubt it. I’m almost 40 for gods sake. That’s crazy to write down but definitely crazier to say out loud. But I think most people die without having achieved their dreams. Maybe the goal then is to just be accepting of it. A dream is a dream. Maybe I’ll try harder in the next one.