Johnny

Today is my mom’s birthday. And she is not here to celebrate it.

I wonder what she could be doing at this moment.

I thought, maybe this is the day she comes to visit me in a dream.
She didn’t, or at least not last night.
So maybe she’s doing something fun.
Maybe she’s hanging out with her new friends in the sky.
Since I know not many of her old ones are there with her right now.
Maybe she’s traveling the universe, and already forgot that this random moment that we call October 5th was her earth birthday.
Or maybe she is traveling through time. (I imagine if there is an afterlife, you can probably travel through time).
Or maybe she’s doing nothing.
Maybe she is resting in the ground in the same way we left her.

And I miss her, because I am not there with her.
I miss her because I may never see her again.